I even think to myself that I've applied too many times. I'm not at an age where I should be applying on a whim, and I have a boyfriend who makes me consider marriage. Applying for AV in this situation—normally, you'd think there's something wrong with that. But...for some reason, I ended up applying. Up until now, I've vaguely lived my life trying not to stray from the path most people take. I play and study to the extent everyone else does, and I approach work just like everyone else. My love life is average too. Friends all say, 'Misa never makes mistakes.' Yet here I am, having applied on my own and now standing in front of the camera. Even I find it strange, but when the lights hit me, I start to feel exhilarated. Being stared at by an actor while he licks my fingers—it's embarrassing and makes my heart race, but it feels good. My boyfriend is indifferent to sex, and moments like this are rare when we're together. As the actor presses his hardness against me, I get more and more aroused. His touch sends shivers down my spine, making me want to both escape and have more, a frustrating feeling. I've never felt anything so good, but just as I'm about to climax, I'm teased, leaving me confused. Feelings of frustration and the urge to attack mix together, leading to an overwhelming assault. I didn't know intense sex could be this fun and pleasurable. Today was worth coming.
