As time goes by, I've become sensitive to the fact that I'm changing. Being a model is a privileged job, and in the past, I was overflowing with confidence. Every day was bright, and the way men around me treated me and reacted to me was visibly fulfilling. But shining moments don't stay still. Before I knew it... I'm already in my thirties. It might sound exaggerated, but even now I can't believe that I've become someone in their thirties. At the same time, I notice that my precious self-confidence is fading little by little. 'What... was I like back then?' Sometimes this anxiety feels overwhelming and scary. Boyfriend... I have one. We've been together for an incredibly long time. I think he understands me well, but because we're so close, there are more things he doesn't understand about me. Honestly... it's lonely. Lonely as a woman. I know I can't go back to being my younger self. But as a woman, I want to regain that feeling or confidence. So please, today, hold me.
