Mom is always selfish. She puts off my brother's stuff, my stuff, even household matters. She quickly falls for some guy and then doesn't come back for days, only to knock on the door laughing and say, 'I lost my job!' while bringing in some stranger saying, 'He wants to fuck you! He'll pay money in exchange!' I was raped on a stained futon, and Mom went out to play with that money. She didn't come to open school days, sports festivals, or graduation ceremonies. My brother said, 'Don't expect anything,' and he actually forgot my birthday. From an outsider's perspective, she's the worst mom ever, but I'm probably stupid because I always forgive her. When she hugs me tightly and rubs cheeks, it feels like she loves me. Today is Christmas. 'I'll take you to a nice place,' Mom messaged. She remembered the promise to spend Christmas together. The hallway smelled nice, the carpet was soft, this fancy hotel made me think, 'What's going on?' But I quickly found out. The room had cute decorations and delicious-looking cake, and a stranger with a somewhat scary smile. 'Sorry, Mom has a date planned. And I'm sorry, but... we're broke again, so can you work hard again?' Even knowing it was all lies, I wanted to believe in my mother's love. A pathetic girl's story of being tossed around by selfish adults.
