When asked 'Why did you want to debut?', honestly, it was just a casual thought. Come to think of it, why did I even think about doing AV? It was just a casual thought too. It's true that my income is low and I don't have much leeway in life, so I answered 'For the money'. In the beauty industry, you need to work for quite some time before you can earn a decent income and live comfortably. I've mostly been living by going with the flow, guided along the way, but working in the beauty industry was something I genuinely wanted to do, so I could keep at it even when life got tough. But lately, I haven't had any complaints, but I just feel like that's all there is. I wondered if there might be something else and while surfing the net, I found a blog post by a girl who wrote 'I went ahead and did an AV shoot☆'! Can you really do it so casually these days? Out of curiosity, I clicked in and read about her shooting experience, how it was surprisingly fun, and how she gained confidence in herself. I thought I'd give it a try too. Along the way, I asked myself several times if this was really okay, but in the end, I didn't back out and went ahead with the shoot. I'm incredibly nervous, but the pay I get will make life easier, and that pay also makes me feel like I have value during this short time... To make tomorrow's self shine even more, maybe I'll enjoy the sex scenes during the shoot!
