490FAN-270 Adulterous wife with a voluptuous body

Shiho, 41 years old. Married for 15 years, full-time housewife. Husband, 44 years old, company employee. Son, 14 years old (3rd year of middle school). During her time as a company employee, she had a relationship with her then-boss, who was kind and guiding, leading to an unexpected marriage. Her husband earns a decent income, and Shiho is a full-time housewife. I don't like it nor do I hate it, and I haven't had sex in nearly 10 years. I've found evidence of my husband masturbating, which made me want to do it even less. I've cheated twice in the past, but those were just one-time things. Usually, I satisfy my sexual desires through masturbation. Being sexless is one reason for cheating, but my son's rebellious phase is so intense that every time he calls me 'old hag,' I feel like I'm losing my dignity as a woman and it makes me sad. I still want to feel joy as a woman. I want to make men happy, satisfy my dirty self… such feelings are welling up.