Mystery novels often pique interest in tricks, but as a writer, I'm always troubled by the nuances of characters' hearts. Emotions between men and women often become key to the story, and I've had various experiences, wanting to have many resources to draw from. Although I genuinely thought this when I applied, I can't deny that I was also interested in the H scenes with male actors. I get wet quickly but don't understand the feeling of climax, which made me anxious about myself. What would happen? Would something change under a professional's hands? Expectation and tension intertwined as I awaited what turned out to be a series of surprises beyond imagination. Having my asshole licked, straddling a man's face to have my pussy licked. Toys feel good, but the intense stimulation left me unsure of what to do. I've done fellatio before, but licking over underwear or having my face pushed down while something was shoved in my mouth—these were worlds I only knew from novels. Kissing while squeezing an erect penis between my breasts. Emotions and sensations were all new, feeling somewhat unreal and ethereal. Seeing myself in the mirror in such a shameful state was too embarrassing to look at directly, but what I thought in the end was 'I'm glad I came here.'
