I've always been bad with men. At the same time, I had a complex about never having dated a man. The anxiety of staying a virgin forever also made me desperate, so two years ago, I started dating someone I became close with on social media. My first sexual experience was with him too. But for some reason, it just didn't feel right… Is this what dating is? Is this what sex is supposed to be like? I always felt a sense of discomfort. There was another person I dated, but things didn't work out with them either… In the end, I was the one who broke up. Now, when it comes to sexual matters, I only masturbate occasionally. The thought of having sex with the next person I date and it hurting makes it hard for me to move forward. Is there something wrong with me because I can't feel good? Honestly, my confidence is fading. That's why I applied to have a professional male actor help me. I just want to feel good. That's all I wish for.
